Why Me???

I don't remember when it stopped happening and why did it happened at all? It had become an integral part of my life and i swear to GOD that i had pledged to devote a part of my daily life to it. Confused??? I am talking about 'Blogging'. During our placement session in our college, we all tend to memorise or cram up "Strong points", "weak points" and even "Hobbies and interests". Why we do so??? Hey man, can't we use our own Fucking brain (sry for the word :P) but still knowingly we do such act. I also committed the same mistake but after i flunked my first company interview (TCS HR round). But that's past and it's never gonna come again. Let's think of today....after all it's 25 years that i have been blessed on this beautiful planet and what i have achieved. I met millions of people till now, interacted with many( can't calculate exact figure which is the reason why i scored less in Aptitude of CAT 2010), many became my friends, some became good friends and lastly but the most important- My Sweet Little family (MOM, PAA and SIS). Now i am an engineer and working in a Fucking Indian IT company where everyday i feel as if my ass is hanging just above a sword and i pray to GOD please keep me hanging else my ASS would be in 4 pieces. To be true to GOD i am just working for the sake of money that i am getting and not for my peace of mind 'coz at 25 i can't ask Dad to spend on me. VPP was the golden time in my life when actually i could have done something to find out my 'DESTINY' but i let it piss off my penis. Actually i am too lazy to stick to one kind of work ( i don't know what is the right word for such personality. I you know let me know). Yesterday i was lying in Apollo hospital( tell you in the end why i landed there) and went into flashback and recollected where i am wrong. To my surprise i found myself never clinging to my target till it is achieved fully. Every time i start it and in between move on to some other. Such an attitude is very disgusting and non-productive. Not only this but i fell into a addicted company of *shraab and *other. I know they are never gonna help me towards my health but i feel the necessity after few days. Recently got myself addicted to grass but very soon i regained my conscious and pledged never to take it again. Although i know past never comes but it's never too late to get things right. It's time to just WAKE UP.
Before signing off for the day, how i reached Apollo. Actually my roommate was diagnosed with kidney stone and was admitted in Apollo Hospital for 3 days. I had three days off,so had to stay with him. Earlier i had planned a trip to ooty in these holidays but 'Fate is Uncertain' and ended up in hospital instead. Bye for now guys. I can't assure you when i will get back to blogging again but do visit and don't forget to post comment. Stay happy and healthy :P